depressed - missing Mom
Monday, October 17 2005 2 Comments
I’ve been down in the dumps about my mom recently. I know it’s to be expected, but it’s strange how it hits me now, even more than at her funeral.
I think part of it is because I was very close to the situation, almost jaded by it, and now that things have had a chance to settle it’s more real. We rarely even walk into her room anymore, so 1/3 of our house is completely unused. This will change sometime soon, but I’m not sure when.
This week I hope to bring her ashes home (my aunt has been hogging them 
). I hope that may help me feel a little better.
ernie dunn
10.20.2005
1:32 PM
dude...i think i know what you are saying.when i lost my grandfather a couple years ago, it was a similar thing, so far as the "jaded" part.in your case you had your mother close, my grandfather was not so close to me.it was hard to see a once strong man broken by disease...i became jaded by that emotion.i was as strong as anyone at the funeral...but shortly after it hit me hard as to what i had lost and who i had lost...i won't say i understand, because all situations are differently, but i think i get what you are saying.thanks for letting me revisit my grandfather again through your post.